Saturday, April 10, 2004
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yes. i know i'm a bitch. spread all the rumours u want abt me. i seriously do not have any control over what other ppl say abt me. i live my life for myself not for other ppl. if they r out trying to destroy my life, there is nth much that i can do. what can i say if ppl would rather believe in rumours. i have totally given up hope. what i do may seem like i'm a bitch or i'm evil but if that's what ppl r thinking, then there's really nth tt i can do. only my close frenz will noe that i cried over this misunderstanding. i'm seriously apologetic. but if i'm stil not forgiven then i really do not know what else to do.
many many probs that i have been going through. i seriously do not think that i can handle them. i think i will break down soon. suicide thoughts have started creeping back into my head. if i find the guts, i may just do it.