Wednesday, May 19, 2004
-see-saw-
hi. Its so early now right? you must be wondering why i'm back home so early. Well, today had mass checking of papers, so we released earlier. Actually wanted to wait for the bandroom to open but its like 2 o'clock open so i decided to go home earlier. Besides, the weather was killing me. So came home and took a bath. Now very refreshed.
Today got back papers and my mood took a plunge again. My mood is like a see-saw. Sometimes i may be feeling very happy. At other times i will be so down. After yesterday, i was actually feeling much better but now..i really don't know what to do with myself. I studied so hard for the chemistry paper hoping to pass but in the end i still failed. Out of the three papers that i got back today, i already failed two. How the hell am i going to survive like that? I'm very angry at myself for failing the additional math paper. It's like most of the mistakes that i made were careless mistake. I could have passed you know? Friday will be yet another D-day i reckon. We will be checking through the rest of our papers. The only hope i have for friday is my english paper. But i'm very worried that i may fail it too.
For now i'm at the bottom part of the see-saw. Angry and tired. Just tired. Tired of my life. Who will be willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on? Who will be willing to listen to my problems? As i expected..........no one.