Sunday, October 15, 2006
-Introverted Me-
Just had a committee outing yesterday. Could say i enjoyed myself there although i fell off the bike several times. Now i have mutiple bruises on my shin and ankle. I think my ankle will never ever get better. Can you imagine the pain i will be suffering from when i'm an old woman?
Anyway, kind of hate myself for being such an introvert person. Its no wonder then that i have so little friends. Coupled with my serious looking face, people keep a fair distance away from me. Why am i so introverted? Why can't i open myself up to others? Sigh.
You know the kind of feeling when you are so angry and frustrated with yourself that you have an urge to just shout and cry? Had to bite my tongue to keep myself from doing just that yesterday.
Damn do i hate myself sometimes. As the famous quote goes, love yourself before others will be able to love you. So how am i going to get others to love me if i hate myself?